Posted: Thu Oct 05, 2017 5:47 pm
My partner and I separated early in the year, but he had noticed i stopped breathing in my sleep, one day I woke up unable to breathe, he asked me if I could breathe, and I couldn't answer, sat up, panicking but unable to respond, or do much of anything, a few seconds felt like a lifetime, then out of nowhere I gasped and had an air rush. It terrified me. It was to happen again. I went to the doctor she mentioned that it could be sleep apnea and likely to be my weight, she said they have clinics but they'll lecture me about my weight and shook her head, (I'm around a size 18-20 but I was bigger in the past prior to the appointment). She made it clear that it's because I'm too big. Which upset me a great deal, I've been trying and it's coming off too slowly. (I'm also disabled). She didn't make the referral. That was a year ago or so. I looked it up, as you do when something is mentioned, I quit smoking it didn't stop it happening. I can't sleep for more than 3 hours a time very often, on the rare time I have, I wake up soaked in sweat with violent headaches, sometimes unable to move my head, and I can't stay awake a full day either. I struggle to remember things, even basic things like if I've just taken painkillers. Now my BP has risen, I'm on ramipril but it won't go down, I asked about the clinic, and if she'd refer me (A different doctor). She said there's no record of it, and no, she wasn't prepared to refer me. The gasping thing is now normal, even though it's scary when it happens. But I'm getting depressed, stressed and so tired it's made me cry, I just literally fall asleep,, and i'm struggling to function. (I drink heavily once a week to sleep more than 3 hours it's how I know what happens, that's not something I'm prepared to stop doing, I need to sleep, I have 2 children, and I have to function, even as badly as this, but, without it, it's worse). I told my mum about this a couple of months back, and she told me sleeps with a mask for it, it's not something I was aware of). I don't have money to do this privately so if it is, is there anything i can do to stop it on my own please? At least until I'm thinner to the point they will help, but that's taking too long, (so the weight thing I don't need mentioning).